Sorry for the delay in updates. I wanted to take a few days after the last post and just kind of—think about it. I did a lot of just sitting around and trying to figure out where this Anna person is coming from, why she’s attacking my reputation, etc. See, this is the first time anyone’s really come at me like this since my condition came about, and my instincts in handling it were pretty unlike me.
See, I’ve always considered myself a pretty calm and reasoned person, but I haven’t really been in any kind of conflict (except self-conflict, of course) since I found myself in my current situation. So while I was previously a very relaxed, non-combatative-type, I found myself just freaking out when I read the post by Anna. This was an attack on my character! I was outraged. Just looking at that word now, though, “outraged”–it seems so angry, so alien, so foreign to me. So unlike me. I’m not an angry person. I’m Chad. I keep my cool, no problem. So this turn of events worries me a little, honestly. Is this just part of my condition? I mean, has being cooped up in here put me a little on edge? Or is this something neurological, based on my current situation?
August 20, 2008 at 11:06 pm |
No one would blame you for being on edge , Chad. Keep the faith and be gentle to yourself.
August 21, 2008 at 12:26 pm |
I think it is safe to assume that you can attribute both of your feelings during that instance to your condition. The condition at first was foreign to you, now you seem to be embracing it, which in turn pulls you away from the things you used to know. You aren’t what you used to be ya know.
September 6, 2008 at 7:50 pm |
Dude,
Are you fully dead? Have your fingers fallen off? Don’t leave us hangin’ bro …
September 9, 2008 at 12:22 am |
Hang in there, buddy.