Okay, I’m back, and it’s been a while, but I think—I think I’m doing okay. I know it looks like I’ve been gone a little while, but to me, it’s hard to believe it’s only been about a month and a half. I think this blog turned out to be invaluable in terms of, well, helping me make it through this time, even if for quite a while there I was feeling like everything was raining glass on me. I don’t know. I’m okay with things right now, I guess. It’s like, the idea of the blog kept me going. In Venice, I had this like, revelatory moment where the sand was caked between my toes and I could just feel it there so, so clearly, each granule stacked on another and pressing into my feet. That was a good day. I think I’ve been feeling good since.
Anyway, it feels good to type again. I wanted to get this all up yesterday but—as self-obsessed as you might think I am—what I really wanted to do was spend some time just zoning out and surfing the web. My fingers dancing on the keyboard, the cool air skating across my face…I never knew how much I missed this. You know, she thought I might not have felt ready to come back here yet, to this blog, but I’m glad I did. I’ll continue this later, though. I think I’m going to give her a call.
October 13, 2008 at 4:22 am |
Glad to hear you are feeling more positive, Chad! I know it must be hard, but keep your chin up! We are here for you!